How do you change what’s already been done? I’m so fucked up from a broken hearted past. How do I learn to trust again and learn to let things go? I feel like throwing up. Loving someone too much is the worse thing that can happen to you. It makes your vulnerable, like silly putty on a hot summer day. You’re a melted mess that can’t even content it’s own mass. And you hope, hope that someone will put you back in your toy egg so you can solidify again. So you have no more open wounds. All this doesn’t make sense. This lump in my throat does though.

All I want is a friend. That shares interests with me. Can do girl things with me. Go shopping, do my hair, and out to lunch. It’s so fucking lonely when you can’t hangout with your ‘friends’ because all they want to do is bone you. I just want to be a normal human being.
