I wish I didn’t care but I do. I wish things were easy but they aren’t. I wish I wasn’t sad but I am.
How do you change what’s already been done? I’m so fucked up from a broken hearted past. How do I learn to trust again and learn to let things go? I feel like throwing up. Loving someone too much is the worse thing that can happen to you. It makes your vulnerable, like silly putty on a hot summer day. You’re a melted mess that can’t even content it’s own mass. And you hope, hope that someone will put you back in your toy egg so you can solidify again. So you have no more open wounds. All this doesn’t make sense. This lump in my throat does though.
hey ya’ll my life is dumb, my job is dumb, and then i cry on my way home, then i’m not nice, and my entire body hurts from being over work, and i’m way too tired to do anything, and then all your laundry is dirty so you have to do that when every you get a chance which isn’t likely, then you don’t eat much which is bad, then you start yelling at people, you also have anxiety attacks and you didn’t know you even had anxiety, then your all like fuck, then you go home just to go to sleep because you have to be back at work the next morning, and then the cycle continues, this is one big run on sentence, these are all my emotions right now, i hate this place.